A video I did a few weeks ago spontaneously, shows me acting as myself and then as a friend or family. I was trying to replicate a conversation and comment that I get often from people around me when I am having a bad time. If you’d like to see the video, you can head over to my Instagram to watch it.
The video represents a situation I’ve encountered so many times with people due to mental health struggles.
It’s when you are on this rollercoaster with mental health; You’re having a good few weeks. You’re on top of your schedule. You haven’t forgotten important dates or meetings and you are more upbeat. You take pride in your wellness and you update those who matter to you, letting them know you are more on top of things… but when you stumble again, you find that you get the type of reaction shown in the video where the person says unenthusiastically “Oh, I thought you said you were on top of things. I thought you were doing ok?” in a disappointing tone, to then shrug it off and leave with no encouragement.
It’s sad. It feels like you have disappointed that person. It feels degrading and embarrassing and as though you are unreliable. But you are not!
Those with mental health struggles will find they have good days, weeks, months etc. but we often get drained easier and triggered and it can cause us to slip a little bit. It does not mean we are lesser than we were at a strong point. We all stumble and fall. It’s about how we get back up. Go at your own pace and remember that life isn’t always linear or a clear path. Some people are more sensitive to overwhelm than others and that’s ok.
Do what works for you and try not to let others bring you down.
Thank you so much for reading. I hope this has helped you feel brighter or made you feel heard. Let me know what you think in the comments and if you can relate.