This year has been full of struggles; Financially, physically, emotionally and mentally. I’ve doubted myself more than ever despite having so many successes this year in such short time. Each success has been swamped by crappy news and family trauma and in turn I’ve had to push my own issues and successes to the side. I’ve neglected myself and work these past few months and It has been sickening. I missed taking care of myself and doing what I love. With all of these high emotions, I ended up being very mean to my body again and disliking it’s shape, size, colour and overall appearance. This is when I knew I had to put my foot down and readjust my mind, like shuffling your to do lists and looking at the tasks needed prioritising. I bunked self care up to the top and started to find ways to fit in my own time and some much needed head space.
I’ve had to become stronger and more stern in order to surpass these difficult times. I’ve come to realise I AM powerful, I AM strong, I AM a warrior, I AM a woman and I can be in charge of my own happiness. The journey is tough, scary, bumpy and strenuous, but damn It’s worth it!
This photo shoot was a way for me to express my self love, self care and the message of body positivity I love sharing with you all. My body has kept me going and stuck up for me when I’ve felt I couldn’t take it anymore, so here I am paying it back with love and care. It deserves it!
Together we are strong
Treat your body like a best friend!
At first glance, my heart sunk. All I could think in my head was insults about myself and how I look on the images. I was point blank just calling myself names.. And then the more and more I looked, I began to uncover these new emotions. It was like the layers of my thoughts peeling away one by one..
“Ew I look so tacky”….“Delete, I look like a panda”….“Hmm, not sure but If you want you can keep it”….“Yeah keep”…. “Ooo I look feisty”….“Keep”….“I like that one”….“Can I see the others again?”
It was almost stages of grief. At first I was so shocked and lost, but the more and more I looked, the more I accepted them. I ended up keeping most of them and instead of scrutinising myself, I either made it into a unique quality of mine or brought it back to the whole reason I do this and the message I try to promote!
I feel powerful and sexy and this is how all of us should feel. Sexy isn’t a bad thing, It is not objectifying someone, or meaning they are less of a professional or kind human. Feeling sexy is a beautiful and enlightening feeling. It’s loving yourself, your body, your mind, your talents and embracing all the you that there is.